Dear Taylor,







As I sit here to write you, it's been 5 long and sad months without you and it seems as tho the trial will never come. They have postponed this thing 2 times now and its frustrating.  Altho no matter what sentence he gets will never bring you back and it will never be enogh justice for anyone in the family it may be a lil bit of comfort for each and everyone of us.  Altho we will always want you back with us it will help each of to move on at least a lil. 









Mommy has said that its too quiet at your house now, and she's so right. When I was there on Christmas, I kept waiting to hear your voice and waiting for you to come running or to see you sitting in front of the tv downstairs playing P S 2.  Mommy and Daddy are some very strong people.  They pretty much keep to theirselves. I don't see or hear from them much. I understand, altho it hurts. 






By now you are probably getting good at flying with your wings and have probably have met some new angel friends and got aquainted with all your relatives and old friends.  There's not a day that goes by that you are not on my mind.







Shine bright for all of us and sleep well in the arms of angels. 

I LOVE YOU!!!
Aunt Miss

Hello My Favorite Cherub,



Well 2007 is coming to a close and we all miss you like crazy, some days are better than others but it's definately not the same without you.





Uncle Bill and I brought you a  Happy new Year balloon and a grenn happy new year hat today.  I so wish you were here with me. I miss hear Aunt Miss, Aunt Miss...SWEET! I miss that hand nose thing so much. 





i know by now you are in heaven with all your friends and family preparing a big party to bring in the new year and I know you have been cloud hopping looking down on all of us and keeping us safe. 





There is not a single day that goes by that I dont think about you and just wish I could go back to that terrible day and make things different.




I love you baby boy!!

Love
Aunt Miss

HAPPY NEW YEAR TAYLOR DAVID GRAYDON BATZEL!!

My First Christmas In Heaven


I am having my first Christmas in Heaven
A glorious, wonderful day!
I am standing with saints of all ages,
Who found Christ, the truth and the way

I am singing with the heavenly choir
I- who so loved to sing!
And, oh what celestial music
We bring to our Savior and King

I am singing the glad song of redemption,
How Jesus to Bethlehem came,
And why they called His name Jesus,
That all may be saved through His Name!

Oh, loved one, I wish you could be here!
No Christmas on earth can compare,
With all of the rapture in glory,
I witness in Heaven so fair!

You know how I always loved Christmas,
It seemed such a wonderful day,
With all of my loved ones around me,
We were so happy in every way.

Yes, now I can see why I loved it,
And, oh what a joy it will be,
When all of my loved ones are with me,
To share all the glories I see!

So, dear ones on earth, I send greetings,
Look up! Til dawning appears,
And, oh what a Christmas awaits us,
Beyond all our partings and tears!

" I'm Spending Christmas with Jesus this Year"

I see the countless Christmas trees
around the world below
with tiny lights like heaven stars
reflecting on the snow

The sight is so spectacular
Please wipe away that that tear
For I'm spending Christmas
with Jesus Christ this year

I hear the many Christmas songs
That people hold so dear
O', the sounds of music can't compare
with the Christmas choir up here.

For I have no words to tell you
of the joy their voices bring
for it's beyond description
to hear the angels sing.

I know how much you miss me,
I see the pain inside your heart.
but, through our memories so dear..
We're never far apart.

I can't tell you of the splendor
or the peace here in this place
Can you just imagine Christmas
with Our Savior.......face-to-face.

I'll ask him to light your spirit
As I tell him of your Love.
Then I'll pray for 'One another'
As you lift your eyes above.

So please let your heart be joyful
and let your spirit sing
for I'm spending Christmas in heaven
and I'm walking with the king.

Dear Taylor









Merry 1st Christmas in Heaven.  I hope you have been cloud hopping looking at all the beautiful lights. This year doesn't even feel like Christmas without you. This was your favorite holiday and we all are feeling you not being here even more thn every other day that you have been sitting on that cloud in Heaven looking down on us.



I know you wouldn't want us to all be sad and would want us to celebrate as we do every year but it's so quiet without you. Oh how i miss your laughter and hearing you say Aunt Miss, Aunt Miss guess what and how i miss your hand nose thing. You are constantly on my mind all the time. 



I bet you are in Heaven starting to celebrate Jesus's birthday. I know that has to be a sweet party and so beautiful. 




Nana, Uncle Bill and I brought balloons to your grave today and we put 11 on your light and left three go in hopes that they reach you in heaven.  Mommy and I both put christmas ornaments on your grave as well as a christmas tree there for you to enjoy.  Someone put two candy canes on each side of your headstone and Angie, bought you a wreath.  I hve a new motorcycle for you but I want to wait until its a lil warmer to put it on your headstone. 



Oh how I wish I could come to Heaven and bring you home. Selfish it may be but you were tken way too soon from all of us.

I hope you are having a wonderful Christmas Baby Boy...We all miss and love you so much.





Im leaving you some presents...
















Merry Christmas My Cherub!!

Dear Taylor,




It's been four long months without you and our lives will never be the same. We all think about you often and it doesn't get any better. We go on only because we have to, if we all could go back and change all of this there is doubt we would. 



I woke this morning to it snowing and they say that when it snows, the angels are sending kisses from heaven, so I believe you are sitting up in heaven seeing how much we all miss you and love you so you decided to ask God to make it snow so we all knew you were thinking of us as we do you and you wanted to send us angel love and kisses. 







Well baby boy I put the chirstmas tree up,  the tree is white with white lights, I bought some light green and light pink bulbs so I could have your favorite color on the tree. i also bought a tony stewart tree ornament for the tree but I think I will bring it to the cemetary and put it there for you.





I see Nana and Uncle Travis have been here and lit candles for you. You will never be far from anyones heart and thoughts.



I bet you are up there in heaven sledding from cloud to cloud and having ball, I bet you have found a snowmobile some where and you and Toby are just cruisin in the snow laughing and carrying on.





Well My Favorite Cherub I have to get ready for work so make sure you are guiding me in these slippery roads. 



I love you
Aunt Miss

Angels





When you were born, an angel smiled,

As you became a child, an angel sat on your shoulder

When you became older, an angel held your hand

As you grew, an angel walked down the road with you,

And, when you died, another angel got their wings.

Hello Sweet Boy,




Ummm can you whisper to God that I really dislike snow and cold and see if he wont make it a lil warmer?  :::giggle:::




Well baby boy, Im almost settled in my new job. I like it and enjoy all my clients and I push on because thats what you would want me to do. Theres not a day that goes by when im doing what I have to do that you dont cross my mind. I know you hear me talking to you on my drive to and from work. When those songs play I know you see me smile.  You would love to hear my stories from work and I can just hear your responses.  Im trying to talk nana into coming to work where Im at. It would be so much better for her and her health and I truely think she would enjoy it as well.




My cherub, your headstone came in today and I stopped after work to see it and...WOW its beautiful....Its emerald green or maybe a forest green...it has your picture in it with a gold flower vase, it also has a guardian angel ona bridge with a boy sitting on the bridge. It has your full name in gold and it has a caption underneath your name.  Its gorgeous, altho mommy isnt quite happy with it im not sure, im thinking she is gonna have it redone because there is something she doesnt like and I believe that if she is not satisfied she should have it fixed the way she wants.

Little Tim and Lindsay were performing tonght, I think it was in the school musical, altho Im not sure.

Uncle Bill and i went shopping tonight and i bought him a coat, of course he chose those old nasty steelers but thats what he wanted lol...



Oh guess what, on the 16th of Decemember the school is dedicating the wresting tournament in your memory. They are having shirts made up with your name on them and best believe if I gotta call off work, Im going....anything for my cherub and his memory.  I wouldnt miss it for the world. 

Ok baby boy Im gonna close this letter but I will be back soon.

I love and miss you so much!
Aunt Miss


Since Pee Wee can't Lick you he sent me a couple of his friends to lick you for him...






Pee Wee Misses You Terribly!

Heaven 


Heaven, where the streets are made of gold,
Heaven, where you never age or grow old,
Heaven, where lifes secrets unfold,
Heaven, where the secrets are told,

Heaven, where flowers grow wild,
Heaven, once again your a child,
Heaven, the weathers always warm and mild,
Heaven, where wings lay open in piles,

Heaven, where we are free,
Heaven, cant you see?
Heaven, its for you and for me,
Heaven, when we are free.





 

Wings of Light

Angels above him,
guardians of his soul,
protect, guide, and assist him,
so that he may grow.

Archangel Michael on his right,
Gabriel on his left,
Rafael in front of him,
Auriel at his back,

Mother Earth beneath his feet,
Christs Light from above,
enfold him in your wings of light,
fill him with your love.

To Taylor From Mommy

Come to me in the darkness,
Come to me in the light.
Come to me awake or asleep,
Please let me know you are all right.

The days are just to miserable,
The night are just as long.
I sometimes hate that radio,
For playing Your favorite song.

Oh how I long to touch you,
And hold you in my arms.
I long to hear your laughter,
Or be a victim of one of your sweet boyish charms.

I miss you so much my sweet baby boy
And your daddy does too.
Daddy stands outside your bedroom door,
And says God, this can't be true.

Our life just isn't the same,
Without you here with us.
Always know WE love you,
Knowing You're an ANGEL is Our only plus

Dear Taylor,

I don't even know where to start as I sit to write my first entry to you as the tears burn my eyes, I miss you like crazy and life will never be the same without you but truth be told YOU will never be forgotten, I will make sure of that. I visit you in the cemetary and there' s not a day that goes by that I dont leave in a mess of tears but I manage to pull it together and come home to go to your MySpace page that you and I created with the Dukes of Hazard. I know you are sitting up there in Heaven doing your little hand nose thing every time I add something new and every time I go to your page and your little mp3 player starts to play. I know you are up there whispering "sweet".  A smile always comes to my face when I find something I know you would like and put it there knowing just how you would react. Not to worry I created this page for all your friends and family so that when they are missing you as I do they can come here and leave you a little entry but as for me you will probably get a novel. ::giggle:: I have written you so much poetry and I am going to post it here so that all your friends who are not on your myspace page can read it and smile as I do. 

Baby Boy your death was so senseless but I guess God needed another angel, :::whispering::: he got the cutest one. well baby I wrote you a poem on your birthday well i guess maybe it wasn't just for you but it was about you so i going to post it here. 

Don't worry I'll be back soon, ha ha probably tomorrow, I have so much to post here for you but I don't wanna overwhelm everyone who hasn't seen it all all ready.

I love you baby boy,
Sleep well
Aunt Miss



Today is Taylor's Birthday so I wrote this for him...Dreams and Taylor

He comes to me in my dreams at night,
He tells me "Aunt Miss, I'm Alright.
He tells me stories about his funfilled day,
In my dreams He has so much to say.

He looks so handsome with his angel wings,
He giggles, slides closer and begins to sing.
I look at him with his eyes of blue,
He whispers "Don't worry I'm visiting everyone else too."

I visit Mommy her eyes so sad,
I tell her being in Heaven isn't so bad.
I know you miss and love me,
And when the time is right we'll be together you'll see.

I visit daddy and I must confess,
My best friend he is a mess.
I tell him Daddy please don't fear,
Wherever you're at I'm always near.

I visit Little Tim, I mess his hair,
And let him know I'm still there.
I tell him Timmy you are definately "the man",
I just wanted you to know I'm your biggest fan.

I visit Nana and see the pain in her face,
I tell her Nana your house is my favorite place.
I tell Nana You go for a ride
Be sure to play my music when you get inside.

I visit Pappy and he's so mad,
I tell him I'm still your turdy boy, please be glad.
I tell Pappy, I know you visit my grave late at night,
So I jump in the truck so you deliver those papers right.

I visit Uncle Bill and he's sad too,
I knnow you love me, look at all we used to do.
I tell him don't worry, those vacations you always take,
Can you please make sure one of them is to the lake?

He looks at me with his eyes so blue,
He said Aunt Miss, please take care of you.
I must go for now you see,
Cause God and the angels are patiently waiting for me.

He said don't worry I'll visit soon,
Be prepared the angels are teaching me a different tune.
He said I love you and gave me a kiss,
And said please don't worry so much Aunt Miss.

Angel With A Kiss


I watch you all as days go by
I wish you all wouldn't cry
I tell you all i'm really all right
I kiss you all one by one late at night

Heaven is filled with pretty things
And oh how those angels always sing
The streets are paved in bright gold
And all the beauty my eyes can hold

God, He tells me I'm a special boy
And how I bring Him so much joy
Jesus tells me of my days ahead
And I looked at him and softly said

I'm still a boy filled with so much love
I want to send it to my family from here up above
I'm still boy full of charm
My little pranks they will never harm

I'm still a boy with so much to learn
But I am filled with so much concern
I worry for those I left behind
I believe I was the tie that binds

He said little one I understand
I know you have patience so take my hand
You and I will watch over them everyday
And you and I will go and pray

He took my hand and we went for a walk
We ended up at this huge beautiful rock
He said little one look down from here
And don't worry there's nothing to fear

You have so much to offer to the world out there
All you have to do is spread your wings if you dare
Its time for you to take this flight
And show your family your beautiful light

See they sit at night and watch the sky
To catch a glimpse of you way up high
So make sure you blow them a kiss
Don't worry your aim is good you wont miss

So I looked at Jesus and gave him a smile
Spread my wings, took flight and flew for miles
I saw you all one by one and blew you a kiss
Jesus was right I didn't miss.

written by aunt miss
9/10/2007



Dear Taylor,

You know when I sat down to write that day I had no clue what I was writing and all of a sudden I was off and running with this ::smiles:: but you know as I was writing I could just see you so clearly in my head being so attentive and hanging on every word Jesus had to say and then I saw you give him that little mischeivous grin when he said to spread your wings and show your family your light because you always had look of let me just try. 

i hope you like it baby boy.

i love you!
aunt miss